Tuesday, March 22, 2011


good news, i'm only half a pound above my lw as of this morning, and fasted today along with burning a metric fuckton of calories.

bad news, i think i'm taking a break. not from ana, just from blogging. on top of dealing with andrew, i've lost one of my best friends (alex), and my band director died this sunday. keep in mind, i've never dealt with a death before. i really just don't feel like doing anything. i don't even have the energy to smoke cigarettes, and that says a lot.

i'll be back when i'm feeling better. i just wanted to make myself type a quick post so you didn't think i was disappearing on you. i just don't have the energy right now.

stay strong, think thin, live ana


  1. Oh, lovely. These are shitty tidings indeed!

    All my thoughts and love are with you.

    Arohanui <3

  2. sorry babygirl. hang in there. cheers for being still so close to you lw. i'll look forward to hearing from you when you're back.

  3. Well done on the fasting/loss :)
    I hope things get better for you soon :(
    Stay strong,
    Lottie x

  4. Do what you need to hon. Everyone needs a break from life once in a while and I know how much energy it takes to keep up your internet life along with your real life. Take a break, feel better and just breathe for a while. life sounds like it hit you hard this time. Hope you feel better soon and know we're here if you need it. <3

  5. I hope you feel better soon, I love reading your blog- you are so inspiring! (Btw, I gave you a blog award.)

  6. I think that you are amazing and I am so so SO sorry that you have hit hard times. Stay strong lovely! I shall smoke a cigarette for you!! We understand your pain and apathy. Think thin darling!

  7. So sorry to hear this beautiful!
    Stay as strong as you can for you.
    Your online familyfollowers are here for you.

    <3 x

  8. hahahhaha SAMMI ! can't wait to tell everyone about this blog...

  9. I just found your blog and I think it's absolutely amazing! I'm sad that you're leaving, right after I started reading, but I hope everything gets better for you. :) Stay strong!

  10. *hugs* i hope things start looking up for you very soon, hunny.

  11. Sorry for your losses :/ Hope things get better soon.

  12. hey nikki, just want to offer any words of encouragement i can. ive been reading your entire blog in the last 2 days and you are an inspiration! congrats on being so close to your gw. if you awnt ot talk or exchange tips, im looking for a friend!

  13. Hi Nikki,

    I found your blog a couple of weeks ago and read the whole thing from start to finish. You sure have an awful lot going on in your life. I really want to say something about your mother, but I guess there's nothing I can say that's going to be news to you! I hope this doesn't sound horribly patronising coming from someone you don't even know, but I felt really proud of you for taking the decision to basically exclude her from your life. When somebody is that poisonous at that age, they're beyond saving, and all you can do is protect yourself. Bloody well done to you for having the strength to do it.

    I hope your haitus gives you what you need, and that you'll be feeling better and back with us soon. You've got a really long-running blog here and it's absolutely cracking.

    Best wishes, Dande x

  14. Darling, you're wonderful and I miss reading your posts. I just stumbled upon a page that I thought you'd enjoy: ifun.ru/view/117301
    Now, they're not all thin and gorgeous, but enough of them are.

    I'm sorry you're still not feeling well. I hope with everything I have that you make an emotional recovery.


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