i did this months ago. the last time i slipped up.
i'm so fucking close to doing it again.
i think i need pills. but even if i could get my dad to notice me for long enough to tell him, he can't afford it. he can't even afford to get divorced. apparently the credit card companies are psycho-calling the other house. he's going to declare bankrupcy soon. he has enough on his plate. does he really need a crazy daughter on top of that?
and i don't want to become some wacked-out pill zombie.