Sunday, November 28, 2010

fucking 7

played truth or dare last night with dan. made the HUGE mistake of asking him to rate me on a scale of 1-10. he said, "like 7."

7.

SEVEN.

A FUCKING SEVEN!!

that's like saying, "well i wouldn't call you hot, but i'm not going to be mean by saying you're ugly either, so i'll just give you 'average.'"

i'll bet you if i was fucking skinny i would've gotten 8 or 9. because every time i see him at school or filming or ANYTHING i'm always dressed up with my eye makeup done all fancy and i can honestly say if i was a stick and my nose and chin weren't colossal (oh yeah, did i mention that my chin has been added to my BDD paranoia?), i'd look HOT. but no. i'm fat and gross and he's just a nice guy so i'm a 7. i'm probably really a fucking 3 or something.

everything i've eaten today has gone straight to the toilet. fuckkkk foooodddddd.

i feel so ugly...

stay strong, think thin, live ana
xoxoNikkioxox

P.S.: i'm on msn now if you ever want to chat. lettersfromana@live.com

2 comments:

  1. i fucking love you nikki! i think you a 5 billion gazillion. i fucking love you so damn much!!!

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