so, after all this time blogging, i've decided to finally post before and now photos of myself. no one's going to recognize me on here, but i've blocked out other people's faces just out of respect for them. i sure wouldn't want one of my friends putting pictures of me on a pro cutting site or something, you know? anyways, i think i'm going to start posting more pictures here, and on my facebook, as i shrink. i'm still deciding whether i want to do this on a time schedule or just as i reach each goal weight. what do you all think? since i do this partly for my readers, i'd like your imput as well. :)
here we go:
this is last year at homecoming. i was in the high 160s then. the blonde in the middle is my gf. a total stick. look at how fat i look compared to her :/
this is me now, a much better, but still fat, 140.2. the difference is noticable, yes?
i think i'm getting closer to that "average" mark. i think once i hit the highest healthy weight for my height, 135, i'll be there. it still hasn't fully registered with me that i could be there in a week or so. i just need to come up with a comprimise, or something really sneaky, to deal with the zack situation. i'm just scared that if he bugs me around other people, they'll get involved too. lizzy, the other girl we sit with at lunch, is the one i'm particularly worried about. i'm also rooming with her at the overnight band camp. i have a feeling she's going to notice something. i've already seen her glancing at me picking at my plate. but seriously, i'm OVERWEIGHT. how many people are going to think i have an eating disorder? i guess it's the one perk of being legit fat. but it's an unneccessary one. the price outweighs the cost.
work is having a pool party tomorrow, and my gf is coming. i'm going to skip breakfast as always, throw out/up lunch, and then pick at party food so i won't be bothered about dinner. should work out as a nice restricting day before my semi-fast on monday.
not much else to say at the moment, just wanted to share the pix. feel free to comment, congradulate, criticize, i want it all.
stay strong, think thin, live ana