Thursday, July 15, 2010

"DEAD TO ME" (original lyrics by Nikki - you all are the first to see!)

i lie awake at night your voice is screaming at me
your arm pressed to my throat again
you're spewing out these lies
just my word against yours
i never want to see you again

you hit me
you choked me
and now you're
dead to me
there's nothing
left in me
for you, you're
dead to me

so now you swear i'm crazy
well who's the psycho here?
don't label me the liar
how dare you say you love me
after everything you did...
you can't do that to your daughter

you hit me
you choked me
and now you're
dead to me
don't bother
to say sorry
cuz now you're
dead to me

and i'm so fed up with all of this
frustrated
i'm hated
how could you blame me for this?
one day this will all come back to you
you'll meet
your God
and it will be too late for you

you hit me
you choked me
and now you're
dead to me
there's nothing
left in me
for you you're
dead to me

and there's no funeral
i'll leave these memories to decay
it's become quite clear
that i am better off this way
despite what you say

you hit me
you choked me
and now you're
dead to me
there's nothing
left in me
for you you're
dead to me
 
you hit me (YOU)
you choked me (HATE)
and now you're (ME)
dead to me (BUT)
don't bother (I DON'T)
to say sorry (CARE)
cuz now you're (ENOUGH)
dead to me (TO HATE YOU ANYMORE)

i don't hate you anymore

you're dead

3 comments:

  1. I love it =] I'm sorry. What you've gone through you shouldn't have had to. You and your sister are brave and I can't believe you have such a cold heart person in your lives. She can't control you lovie, just remember if all else fails you have us and your sister and love to keep you going. You are not a monster or a horrible ungrateful child like your mother makes you out to be. If she ever touches you again:RUN. Get out of there. For your's and your sister's sake. You deserve BETTER. I'd love to hear you put a melody to your words <3 stay strong sweetie you will make it through the dark

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  2. Oh Nikki, I just read your previous post. I'm sorry you had to experience such a violent and traumatic incident, and how no one seemed to believe you even though you told the truth.

    Well, I do! And I know everyone here believes in and supports you too.

    The opposite of love is indifference, not hatred. I'm glad you don't hate your mum anymore (for your sake, not hers); channel your anger and emotions into motivation to accomplish the things you want to achieve in life.

    Stay strong, and take care!

    *big hug*

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  3. your writing is amazing, i hope everything gets better. and cutting ur mom outta ur heart, head, and life, i think will be a benefit.

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